Friends n Fam

Friends n Fam, what to say, what to say. Seems like every min theirs one going away. away from you nd everything you had. Like wat u did was a waste, all the gud nd the bad. For me fam is the same way to, have 3 brothers..none of em saw me graduate high school. Throughout the huge crowd, had 3 ppl that were their for me...now thats wat i call family. Looked left, then right....even up nd down. only to relize no other family was around. Thats when it hit me, my friends were my family. Then it also hit.....that could never be. A best friend and a brother are 2 differnt things..both have love with different meanings. a best friends love is all i've had, not saying its bad or that it makes me mad, jus miss a brothers love...just a tad. the kinda love i kno cant be taken away, the kind that does more then listen, thats the kinda love im missin. Mayb one day, ill be able to say....Hey thats my brother and he loves me, were one tight family. he, she , them, or they couldnt tear us apart. loves to strong for us to depart. Family is wat we would always be, no matter wat fight put us against each other, n the end u'd always be my brother. same goes for a mother, and a father to.......Friends n fam, what to say what to say

Trials and Tribulations

Life...wat more can i say. That simple word that means so much, yet i kno so little about it. i live it? Its confusing and the only thing promised in life is death. Thats all i truely no about life. Nd everyday i wake up to this thing called life. Life for me has always seemed harder then the guy sittin next to me. But i guess thats an unfair thing to say, seeing as i kno nothing about their life. Let me switch the topic up a lil bit. Ever had that feeling that everything in life is against you? Like nothing can go right...sure we've all been there. I seem to get to that point alot..and all the advice is the same "it could always be worse", "lifes a bitch", "ppl have it worse then you","its all worth it to walk thru those heavenly gates". These r all things i hear and say when sumones comes to me for aid. Nd tho they may all be true, sumtimes i feel theirs sumthing else. Like were being tested. Nd those who cant hang with the trials and tribulations of life get punished and arent allowed the glory we see. i.e. those who rob in times of hunger or need. Those who kill in times of hate or selfisness. Nd those who end their own lives due to stress and pain. most people in these examples are sent to prison or damned in hell(in my religion atleast) To me, these are the ppl who didnt pass the test. Nd the ones who do are greeted with riches beyond imagine n heaven when their time comes. I once heard "the greatest gift we have in life is choice" this makes me wonder...mayb life is just a big test. A test given to us from above nd were graded on judgement day. Those who failed are sent to hell for punishment nd those who pass are sent to heaven to reep the benifits....Just a thought on life, mayb instead of tryna figure it out ill jus live it and see what happens.